It felt cruel for me to want this man, THIS man, 16 years my junior and who I believed was sure to abandon and hurt me that it was possible. Therefore I attempted to destroy my desire by gathering any flaw, mistake, and inconsistency i possibly could find and hurling them at him 1 by 1. The much much deeper we dropped, the greater amount of fearful I became, therefore the more I looked for flaws to indicate and criticize. We thought I may stop loving him he was if I realized just how deeply flawed and immature. Alternatively, I experienced provided him reason that is good leave me personally, and I became more afraid than ever before which he would.
In a short time, we had been trapped in a destructive and painful pattern. We’d deliver …